Call me a Scorpio, but there is just something unnatural about being in contact with someone you’ve broken up with. It’s like keeping something past its expiry date and it’s stinking up your house but you just can’t let it go. Eww.
And that’s what made me think – being in any sort of contact with your ex is unhealthy and can lead to dire mental and physical effects in the future. (I’m a perfect example!) You don’t want this to happen to you. After all, hasn’t he put you through enough? There must have been a reason things didn’t work out. It was a chemical imbalance that you need to stay away from.
Of course I’m judging this on my own experiences which have always ended with lots of screaming, yelling, stomping and crying. What’s new? I’ve tried every single time to stay ‘friends,’ but I just get so angry off of anything that comes out of his mouth, or the gestures he makes, or just his breathing it just makes me want to rip his head off and kick it out the window. Am I crazy? Maybe.
I realize that I get hysterical when I’m around an ex. I instantly start thinking about everything he’s done wrong and get ridiculously pissed when I realize he still hasn’t fixed himself. I get even more pissed when he’s fine with it, like my leaving didn’t make him want to change.
Yes, he didn’t deserve me, I was the best thing he’ll ever have. The thing that upsets me is he’ll never be the best thing I’ll ever have. But what sucks is he’s got the best and I never did – that’s unfair and it frustrates me. As much as I can leave with my head held high saying ‘you’ll miss me,” in which of course he does. He never had to deal with disappointment. All he had to deal with was failure.
No matter how mild-mannered you are, you can’t deny feeling a bit of spite when you see your ex with a new girl, giving her everything you never got, and giving her everything you asked for. I used to think it just meant he had to settle for someone else, but it’s actually me that isn’t over the whole thing. I’ll admit right now that I can’t forgive and forget as much as I can pretend to. At the end of the day I’ll freak out and break a window or something, which is why it’s absolutely unhealthy to be in contact with someone you obviously don’t mesh well with.
Of course I’ll say ‘this time it’ll be different,’ and try every time to be civil. But this is just a reminder to tell me it’s okay to hate. Sometimes things just shouldn’t be. Don’t you agree?
The new store opens March 24, 2011 at 34 Gansevoort Street in Meatpacking District, NYC. It’s twice the size of Rebecca Taylor‘s first store in Nolita and will carry exclusive personal touches and favorite mus
t-haves from Rebecca herself! So cute, right?
